At some point I definitely would like to go back and recap my year of doing homeschool with Hannah. In short, kindergarten with her has been amazing and I am so thankful to God that He gave me the strength and wisdom to be able to do it. We only have about 3 weeks left of her kindergarten year; I wish I would have blogged throughout the year but at least I did keep an album of her schoolyear in pictures which I will have to share a sampling of those at a later time.
Today though, I sit here realizing and understanding how much of the power of God He has given me access to through the One who paid it all for me. This week, my husband is off in Texas on something called a Quest. It is something done by a ministry called Fellowship of the Sword (www.fellowshipofsword.com); a 5 1/2 day retreat-esque atmosphere where people can go and get away from any and all distractions to spend time with and hear from God. Ken will be gone until late Sunday night; his plane doesn't arrive until 11:00 in the evening, and until then I will have no email or phone contact with him. I am praying for him that he is hearing from God and experiencing God in ways that he never has before, and that God is giving him direction and clarity beyond his own comprehension.
The Quest is just only a part of the transformation power of Jesus in not just Ken's life, but my life as well. Since about November, there have been a series of events that have taken place which I know were not coincidental, but instead were used of God to get our attention and make us realize that He DOES love us, He DOES want us to realize healing and experience victories over the strongholds in our lives, and He DOES have a calling and a specific purpose for not just us a couple, but each of us individually. Perhaps someday I will share in more detail about the strongholds that we have experienced freedom over; suffice it to say that God has met us in some very deep, painful places and has allowed us to see that He WAS there with us during that time, whether we realized it or not.
I know that this week while Ken is gone that God is going to use it to teach me as well. He has already shown me that He is my TRUE Bridegroom, that I can rely on him and share with Him my life, just as I do with Ken. The only difference is He is perfect, will never hurt or disappoint me, and seeks to continually make me understand that love for Him. I have learned that some of the expectations I had placed on my husband were actually misplaced as they were things that I can only find fulfillment in through my heavenly Father.
He is also teaching me this week, as I have been reading through the book of Ephesians, that the same power that raised Christ from the dead is also made available to those of us who love him and choose to trust Him and believe in Him!! I think that so much of my previous living, even so-called "Christian" living, was SO hindered because I never fully understood what that could mean for my walk and relationship with the Father!! I am understanding that as I seek first His Kingdom and righteousness, that He does want to Bless me and provide for me. And in addition to that, as I search out what His real and true Will is for my life, my desires do change!!
Something that Ken and I have been praying about recently is the possibility of him attending Bible college in the fall to obtain a Biblical counseling degree. We have both said that we have a sense of urgency when it comes to people that have experienced deep hurts in their lives; we want to be able to, as much as we are able, show these people how God was with THEM during their hurtful pasts as well. We are walking forward towards that possibility as God leads us; so far we've applied to Calvary Bible College in Grandview, MO and are looking into moving on campus as well. I think though, that I was finding myself putting all my "eggs" in that basket and found myself praying "God, wherever you lead, I am willing to go. Wherever you direct my husband, I am willing to follow him". Even if that means moving to Texas or Main or Canada. I think God is helping me understand His power in my own life because it is that power alone that will give me the strength to walk forward in this life with perserverance, even if that means moving out of my comfort zone and into the unknown.
The same power that helped a man walk on water....
Today though, I sit here realizing and understanding how much of the power of God He has given me access to through the One who paid it all for me. This week, my husband is off in Texas on something called a Quest. It is something done by a ministry called Fellowship of the Sword (www.fellowshipofsword.com); a 5 1/2 day retreat-esque atmosphere where people can go and get away from any and all distractions to spend time with and hear from God. Ken will be gone until late Sunday night; his plane doesn't arrive until 11:00 in the evening, and until then I will have no email or phone contact with him. I am praying for him that he is hearing from God and experiencing God in ways that he never has before, and that God is giving him direction and clarity beyond his own comprehension.
The Quest is just only a part of the transformation power of Jesus in not just Ken's life, but my life as well. Since about November, there have been a series of events that have taken place which I know were not coincidental, but instead were used of God to get our attention and make us realize that He DOES love us, He DOES want us to realize healing and experience victories over the strongholds in our lives, and He DOES have a calling and a specific purpose for not just us a couple, but each of us individually. Perhaps someday I will share in more detail about the strongholds that we have experienced freedom over; suffice it to say that God has met us in some very deep, painful places and has allowed us to see that He WAS there with us during that time, whether we realized it or not.
I know that this week while Ken is gone that God is going to use it to teach me as well. He has already shown me that He is my TRUE Bridegroom, that I can rely on him and share with Him my life, just as I do with Ken. The only difference is He is perfect, will never hurt or disappoint me, and seeks to continually make me understand that love for Him. I have learned that some of the expectations I had placed on my husband were actually misplaced as they were things that I can only find fulfillment in through my heavenly Father.
He is also teaching me this week, as I have been reading through the book of Ephesians, that the same power that raised Christ from the dead is also made available to those of us who love him and choose to trust Him and believe in Him!! I think that so much of my previous living, even so-called "Christian" living, was SO hindered because I never fully understood what that could mean for my walk and relationship with the Father!! I am understanding that as I seek first His Kingdom and righteousness, that He does want to Bless me and provide for me. And in addition to that, as I search out what His real and true Will is for my life, my desires do change!!
Something that Ken and I have been praying about recently is the possibility of him attending Bible college in the fall to obtain a Biblical counseling degree. We have both said that we have a sense of urgency when it comes to people that have experienced deep hurts in their lives; we want to be able to, as much as we are able, show these people how God was with THEM during their hurtful pasts as well. We are walking forward towards that possibility as God leads us; so far we've applied to Calvary Bible College in Grandview, MO and are looking into moving on campus as well. I think though, that I was finding myself putting all my "eggs" in that basket and found myself praying "God, wherever you lead, I am willing to go. Wherever you direct my husband, I am willing to follow him". Even if that means moving to Texas or Main or Canada. I think God is helping me understand His power in my own life because it is that power alone that will give me the strength to walk forward in this life with perserverance, even if that means moving out of my comfort zone and into the unknown.
The same power that helped a man walk on water....
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It has been a true blessing to watch your grow in your faith! Thank you for sharing your heart. I love that you both on board with showing hurt people that God was there all along.
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